Have you ever felt this way? I have, and I don’t enjoy the
feeling. It’s like I get so frustrated sometimes and get that feeling that I
can’t stand. Sometimes it is when I feel crazy or come across situations I
can’t control. Or maybe, like in more recent cases, I get upset when my ex provokes,
or prowls into my world through a random text, an accusation, or a continued lie.
I thought I was all over with the feelings of anger after
ending the marriage, but I find myself still needing to deal with the sin
nature, and in particular the emotion of anger and bitterness.
Towards the end of my married life, I had become someone I
did not know. I was angry. I was angry that I was in the situation I was in;
angry that I couldn’t be enough for my husband to want only me; upset that I
had to be alone; and resentful for all of it. This anger and bitterness came
out of my mouth, my actions, and my emotions. Although I thought I had the
majority of this anger under control, the underlying anger had rooted inside of
me, and was taking its toll on me- physically and emotionally.
So now when I have those encounters and I feel the anger and
bad memories arise in me, I try to take note of what the issue was that made me
feel mad and figure out a way to work through it, as to not have the angry
feeling about that particular thing again.
I know that there will be potential frustration in the
future, but it will be my choice on how I allow it to affect me. As far as my
ex anger goes, I still pray and hope that the love will eventually fade so that
I will not continue to be hurt over and over, and I will no longer be concerned
with anything that could negatively affect me.
What are your thoughts about this or how you have handled
anger or hurt or bitterness?
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