I woke up Thursday feeling sick with a sore throat and achy
ears. I had been trying to fight off the seasonal sinus junk with Vitamin C and
water, but needed medical intervention (awesome shot...lol). By the way, did
you guys know that a “Sinus Cocktail Shot” is a mid-south thing?! The nurse and
doctor thought I was crazy! Be thankful!!!
So I scheduled to go to the doctor and got both of my jobs
notified. That morning also came with news from a loved one that was both happy
and extremely sad.
My last post discussed a possible future with a special guy
only if things were worked through. I asked for closure or resolution- and
closure I was given. That final knowing that heartbreak is upon you.........
even knowing I’m ready and needing to move on, is still something that weighs
the heart. I had been working on emotional detachment and hadn’t been in
contact for weeks and weeks, so it was a bittersweet day.
After spending the morning resting and dealing with those
emotions, I got ready, went to the doctor, got my shots, and decided on some
retail therapy. When in doubt- shopping usually helps!! I made a leisurely trip
to the mall to shop for a few needs, and even a few “wants”. After the ride back home jamming out to the
radio (one of my favorite things to do!! I know a little dorky), I had dinner
in and a night of reflection.
Earlier in the day, as I was texting my sister, one of my
best friends, and my mom, I was encouraged, loved, and energized. Reminded of
the relationship I deserve; reminded of the pain I may be by-passing; and
reminded that there is a plan for my future, but also my single life. As shared, I have a desire to ultimately be
married. I think marriage is indeed one of the greatest gifts that we humans
can be given, if appreciated correctly. And although I feel this way, I do not
want to marry just anyone or rush into things for the sake of it. I want it to
be right. Passionate. Full. Loving. I want my friendships and relationships to
be no more and no less than they should be. I want to love myself, even in
those times I fail myself by feeling lonely. I need to remember that God does
have a plan for me in this time of singlehood. He has a plan for my future and
the man that will be the God-formed partner in this life journey.
I want to share the last text message that my mom sent me. In
the past, my mom and I have never been really close, but the past two years, we
have really become more than we have ever been. I am so thankful for her wise
words, her love, and reflection of Christ that she lives for so many to see.
Her wisdom of not putting my emotions of love, etc. away is probably my
favorite part, on. This is something personal to me, but something that I think
could speak to someone else too.
Right now, I am hoping to try to look at my single life in a
different light. I’m so ready for new things, confirmations, and yes,
ultimately meeting an amazing man. Who knows........could be anytime.....but
until then, I am thankful that I have the love and support of friends and
family. I have personality traits that make me that independent, head-strong
Sarah that I have always been, and I have my education, a roof over my head,
and a vehicle to drive. I am living in a
new place, meeting new people, and experiencing great new things!!! Why should
I worry?! I am reminded of the song “Titanium” from a couple years back
that my sister told me was the song she thought of about me. I’ll take it! So
many things we all go through, and so many things we will continue to go
through.
Hi. I’m Sarah. Divorced. Single. Christian. Graduate degree.
27 years old. Full of life. Independent. First-born. Low-Maintenance. My friends
and family are very important to me. Love to sing, paint, travel, and try new
restaurants. I love music. Can sometimes stink at making decisions. Impatient. Not easily
stressed. Drama-free. Looking for real. Appreciates gentlemen. Believes there
are such things as “fairy tales”. Can’t wait. Choosing to find my purpose in
singlehood. Nice to meet you.
A small blurb for someone’s life is ridiculous and yet
refreshing, all at the same time. Think about it. What would yours say? Are you
fulfilling your purpose for the season of your life you are in?
Thanks for
letting me share and for just letting me be me.
- S
