Why must there be this desire to have that significant other
in our lives?
I know that many may feel like sharing, or may be thinking that I
should just be patient and be encouraged. That I should remember that the Lord
will bring the right person at the right time and that I should enjoy being “single”
and unmarried; I get it. I understand
all of this, but I am so annoyed that I desire to be loved and protected. I’m
sick of craving the feeling of being held and kissed. The fact that I feel like
God created me to be a partner, and that when I am, I am actually a better
servant, makes be so mad. I want to be a wife to a man that loves God, me, and
our family. I have Christ, family, and friends in my life, and I feel that I am
sooo ready to have my knight in shining armour take me and want to conquer life
together, that sometimes it drives me crazy...lol.....
I know that I am a princess in the eyes of my Lord. I also
know in the deepest part of my being, that He has the most amazing future
planned out for me, but I am feeling somewhat stumped as to what is going on. I
know that every love story has it’s ups and downs. I am encouraged hearing love
stories of others and what they went through to finally get to each other. One
of those stories is that of my parents. I’m sure they won’t mind me sharing a
summary.....
Girl meets guy when he comes to evangelize at her church.
She is in a negative and abusive relationship, and so presents herself as
single to this fine young evangelist. He is older than her (she-17, and he 24),
but it was like the first time they met, they knew. They knew that their
meeting was no coincidence. He was living in Sevierville, TN (east TN) and she
was finishing high school in West TN. They wrote. She was still with the emotionally
abusive boyfriend, because she felt stuck. This young evangelist and her spoke
on the phone. At one point he said if you want to marry me, let’s do it quickly
(meaning courthouse) and we will go evangelize from there. She firmly says no because
she is going to have the wedding of her dreams. So, wanting what he wants, says
to have a good life. She, in shock, goes about life and is ultimately engaged
to a cheating and less-than-God’s best. Then, believe it or not, the young
evangelist calls and they decide that they want to be together and he moves to
West TN. My dad goes and addresses the situation of the other guy and frees my
mom from the bondage of hurt and being taken advantage of. They truly get to go
out on a date and spend some time together before they get engaged. A
short time later, the wedding that my mom always wanted was with the man she
always wanted; the man that she knew God had placed in her life; her partner;
God knew what they both needed after the past relationships and situations they
had been in. Taking the leap and the step to accept Christ’s calling together.
I am so thankful that even though things seemed unfavorable or like they weren’t
going to work out, that my parents found love.
Because of their love, so many other things have been
brought about, seen, created, and shared with family, friends, ministry, and
the world. So far 32 years, and going. This is what I crave. It’s almost like I have a love/hate feeling
with the pursuit of my partner. But, here I am Lord, please just bring to light
the relationship and the man that I will be loving every day for the rest of my
life.
– Amen
